current feeling is :
SO MUCH TO SAY BUT SO HARD TO EXPRESS THEM OUT!
seriously, i've been wanting to blog about everything's in my mind now.
so many things that have been bothering me these few days.
But i just can't seem to arrange them nicely in words.
and so, nobody will understands.
Only me & God.

Soal hati dan perasaan nie,
Serious taknak fikir.
Memang kalau boleh taknak fikir langsung.
Allah yang akan tentukan segalanya.
Janganlah berharap pada apa2.
Berhenti berharap kalau taknak kecewa.

Hasnt been blogging for a while.
urgh, shouldnt even call me a blogger.
i dont expect anyone to read this post actually.
Just wanna find a way to express my current feeling.

A confession.

YES. I'm in love with Islam and I've been studying a lot about this religion.
I believe that it's the truth.
Since I was in kindergarden, my mom enrolled me to an Islam pre-school because it's near home.
There, I've learned quite a few basic things about Islam.

Jawi :- alif ba ta etc
Solat :- i learned to ambil wudhu' and followed the others pray (just the movement)
Doa :- i learned few doa but till now i only remember the doa makan

Maybe I've learned many other things about Islam but the three that I remember most is the three stated above.

Sorry to say all these BUT.
I don't know how things can change this way but truth is it has changed.
I don't feel the same anymore
I don't feel sad without you anymore
Has the love fades away just like that?
I don't know,
perhaps this little heart has learnt the lesson.
It's okay if you're not there for me,
It's okay if you go to another girl,
It's okay if you're mad at me,
It's okay if you don't remember nor care about me.

I'm feeling bad, yes.
But I can't help it.
Thinking of how you used to treat me, the feelings just disappear.

Madly in love?
Not me anymore.

I've found something even more important.
I should've realised this since the beginning.
The Creator.
Love for Him.
The One.